LRE RIP

11 Years... Wow, I did not know it had been so long but it really is. 

Today is the day that my oldest brother passed away from a hold in the heart, A heart that he showed every single day of his short life. I dont know if this is the same for everyone but both my brothers have always looked out for me, Lewis was the oldest and when we went into care (I was aged 6) he took up the farther roll and took Ian and myself under his wing. 

He knew that we could be something and he always tried to help us when he could, for both of us advice with the best thing, While Ian followed, i learned. I think this is the biggest difference between myself and him.

Today is always a sad day in my family and I am sure you can understand why, My Mum and Dad had to burry a son, we (my brother and I) carried his coffen into the church and his son and girlfriend had to say goodbye to the biggest part of their life's.

Today I asked the Tarot how he was doing and pulled the  

Judgement- Judgement, rebirth, inner calling, absolution

While i find this card interesting, Looking into it I find a balance, He is in balance with everything, the energy's, the health and the universe. While the people below are strugling with life, he is above us, watching (and most likely laughing). He has his music playing and while we miss him below we see that he is still there, Still with us and no matyter what happens in life... My bigest brother will always be in my heart and my soul.

Rest in peace bro, I'll see you again some day xx